All you have to do is look at a picture of me to see that I am short and chubby. Well recently I have crossed the chubby line and become fat. I am 5'4" (if I round up) and at my heaviest was 215 lbs.
I wasn't happy with that weight, but I just couldn't seem to find the motivation.
I think part of my lack of motivation is that I don't feel fat. I don't hate the way I look. I don't like my double chin, or how flabby I look naked, but for the most part I love myself and don't really feel fat most of the time. In my dreams I am always skinny, because that is how I see myself (until I look in a mirror). I am also very healthy for a big girl. Low blood pressure, low cholesterol, normal blood glucose. I may be fat, but my health is good so losing the weight was that big of a deal to me.
Now onto my point. How I found the motivation to lose weight. My husband, who is not overweight, has diabetes. But he doesn't manage it well at all, and no amount of my nagging seemed to get through to him. He recently had a blood glucose test done because my doctor said his diabetes could be why we are having trouble conceiving. Well the results were not good at all, and it was a huge wake up call to him. Now he is sticking to a healthy diet and is coming for walks with me every night. When it was just about me losing weight it was very easy for me to skip the evening walk and to go to McDonald's or Taco Bell instead of cooking something healthy at home. That isn't an option anymore. I have to get my husband healthy so we can have a baby and so he will be around to help me raise that baby.
I have lost 4 pounds since I have started trying to get D healthy. I know this time, I am not going to lose my motivation, because it isn't just my health on the line.
